You can't afford to want something but at the same time not make an effort. That is a rock and a hard place you don't want to be stuck in. If you are feeling uncertain or insecure, just give it a go anyway. What's the worst that could happen? If you go into Who Wants to Be A Millionaire with $0 and come out of it with $0, you haven't lost anything have you.
I'm going out tonight, but actually feel like a quiet night in. How boring I've become. Not exactly sure what my idea of a good night out is these days. I want to be interested and excited. The activities that used to give me this just don't seem to be doing it for me at the moment.