You can't afford to want something but at the same time not make an effort. That is a rock and a hard place you don't want to be stuck in. If you are feeling uncertain or insecure, just give it a go anyway. What's the worst that could happen? If you go into Who Wants to Be A Millionaire with $0 and come out of it with $0, you haven't lost anything have you.
I'm going out tonight, but actually feel like a quiet night in. How boring I've become. Not exactly sure what my idea of a good night out is these days. I want to be interested and excited. The activities that used to give me this just don't seem to be doing it for me at the moment.

Retail therapy

VCR ..... $140
Iron ..... $65
Burton Snowboard Boots ..... you don't want to know
Section Snowboard Pants ..... you don't want to know
Retail therapy .... priceless
(ESS Snowboard Store in Parramatta - great service, lots of quality snowboard, ski, wakeboard gear - check it out - and no they didn't pay me to say this)
It's taken a while but I've finally organised myself at home after being a bum for several weeks. Initially I'd have to get up at 7.30 to drive my brother to the train station, after which I'd eat breakfast, then proceed to really do 'not-very-much' all day. But at the end of the day I'd always have this dissatisfied feeling.
So while it ruins the whole experience of being a bum, even bums like me need to-do lists for the day. Now the list may contain a point to 'do nothing', but it is a list nonetheless. It's quite sad. Next I'll be getting a PDA. Sample of today's to-do list:
- Call employment agent
- Buy VCR
- Open bank account
- Clean Car
I feel better if I achieve at least one small thing each day. Of course the main thing on my to-do list right now should be study for SIA..but I have conveniently left that one out up til now.
Only 19 days until I start work now.

Most recent CD: 'We Love' Sydney (Sounds on Sunday Promo CD)

Free Hugs

Today there were 3 guys giving out free hugs in Pitt St Mall. They were extremely dedicated - not only were they not getting many takers, but they were standing there in the middle of the mall in the persistent drizzle. That may have something to do with their low hit rate though - a couple of not-overly attractive wet guys aren't especially appealing to grab a hold of. So obviously I didn't feel like a hug today, however if they were not-unattractive wet girls....
I do feel relatively chuffed, well flattered is the better word today. In the last few days I've received 2 job offers, 1 of which I am accepting tomorrow. It's definitely good for my self confidence. The role I selected though isn't necessarily the one with the most seniority or greatest amount of responsibility. My recent work experiences have definitely left some scars with me, and I'm a bit scared/worried about taking anything else on which may put the same amount of pressure on me personally. Saying that though the job I am taking still presents alot of challenges for me - its a large project I'm joining trying to build a very complex system (which I won't bore you with the details of).
Regardless there's obviously some unknowns, but I'm happy with my choice of job. Or more accurately I will be happier once I get started on it. Its a contract as well so I'll see how that fits with me (as opposed to a permanent job). At least I don't have to worry about looking for a job now and can relax for a while. I'm a bit dubious about employment agents now though, but that's a whole other story.

And if things don't work out, I can always give out free hugs...

Updates to photos links

I've posted pictures from my Japan snow trip this year up on the links section.
I'm also thinking about how to edit the vids from the trip into a little compilation with music - my first attempt at a snowboard video :).

Hello

I'm back home, and cleaning out my draws today, I find old cinema ticket stubs that I have kept. So before throwing them out, I thought I'd record somewhere the movies that I have seen at the cinema:

'00: American Beauty, Dogma, The Insider, U-571, Pitch Black, Romeo Must Die, Gladiator, Patriot, Vertical Limit, Unbreakable, The Dish

'01: Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Titan AE, Dungeons and Dragons, Shrek, Tomcats, Remember the Titans, Hannibal, Dude Where's My Car, Lara Croft - Tomb Raider, American Pie 2, Apolocypse Now Redux, Don't Say a Word, Scary Movie 2, The Score, Swordfish, Rush Hour 2, Moulin Rouge, Monsters Inc, LOTR: Fellowship of the Ring

'02: The Tuxedo, Road Trip

Reason there is no record after 02 is that I did start watching movies less frequently at the cinema, plus I stopped keeping ticket stubs.
Although I did watch more movies in Brisbane and HK. When you got nothin to do on the weekend nothing better than going to the cinemas to spend an arvo.

Other things I found
- 5 admit one passes to Pure Platinum (never went tho haha)
- A scorecard for a round of 82 at sefton golf course
- Lots of other stuff as well not worth mentioning - I'm a receipt horder - so chucking out alot of receipts, plus alot of old air tickets stubs.

Day 1 of 'job hunting' - haven't done anything yet.

I'm gonna copy other people and have a little aside about music as well

most catchy song of the moment on radio: 1 2 step remix
last CD bought: Tricka Technology by Krafty Kuts